Happy New Year: Abundance

2019 is upon us. Like many, I’ve thought about how I would like the next year to unfold. A lot of people make resolutions, goals, etc and I think it’s a perfectly reasonable thing. January 1 feels like a fresh start, like clean sheets out of the wash, like the crisp cool air of dawn just before the sun peeks over the horizon, like the first hint of spring even if it’s less than 30 degrees F outside.

I’ve thought a lot about the things I want to accomplish but kept waffling on how I wanted to proceed. After all, I felt like a failure because I didn’t Do All The Things. Then, this past week I received my contributor copy of the latest anthology a short story of mine is featured in – She Blended Me With Science – and I realized that I may not be the greatest writer but it’s really no excuse not to write.

she blended me with scienceAside from the obvious “you can’t get any better if you don’t practice” bit, I’ve been working through my own blocks – it’s okay not to be wildly successful out the gate, all the time, not to be perfect. Which then fostered the realization that my own high standards for myself literally have been holding me back in many things.

So I went back to a word I’ve been hearing repeatedly: abundance and what it means for me. Obviously, abundance in terms of financial security in some measure, but also in terms of being less fearful, loving my life and what I have, being grateful for simple pleasures, family, friends, food, and shelter. An abundance of abilities to go out and get exercise, to be able to read, to give my time to others, to appreciate each day and moment.

So I’m going into 2019 with an open mind, with curiosity, with appreciation and gratitude, and a “what’s the worst that can happen” attitude. And I wish you all the abundance as you define it.



The Notorious Notebook – Du Sverdinvyrd

This is so exciting to see…

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esterday, 30 years after The Dragonbone Chair was published I posted a few pages of the notebook that proceeded the book. Tad gave me the notebook this Summer when I visited him and Deborah for a few days and it was a true joy to browse through it, read here and there, look at long lists of names of language creation, timelines and the like. To me it was a true treasure and I excitedly read it for hours and hours … then I talked to friends about it and they were excited, too and a bit jealous, too so I asked if I could take pics and share them and Tad in his unlimited generosity agreed.

So this is what will happen here: in loose and unregular sequence the content of the notebook will be posted on this site. I’ll tweet (@ylvs) about new posts under the header  #TheNotoriousNotebook…

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Publication Pitfalls: Watching out for the Alligators

58e5a-insecure2bwriters2bsupport2bgroup2bbadgeThe first Wednesday of every month is officially Insecure Writer’s Support Group day.

August 1 question – What pitfalls would you warn other writers to avoid on their publication journey?

Pitfalls while seeking publication are inevitable. They’re like trying to avoid Legos on the floor in the middle of the night when you have small children or trying not to be murdered by your cat when you go down the stairs. It’s going to happen. The most you can do is brace for them and prepare.

pitfall_alligatorsHowever, I’ve been around the block a few times so here are my best tips about avoiding pitfalls and then some. Of course, it’s not an all-inclusive list, but I think these are the biggies.

  • Do not send anything out for publication (or to an agent) without a critique by trusted readers (not your mom, not your partner) and a thorough editing, revision, and proofreading
  • On that vine…learn the difference between revision, editing, and proofreading
  • Make it a point to understand story structure and how it applies to your work. As a lifetime reader, I’d developed a general sense for how a story should unfold, but I’ve still benefitted from studying craft and how to develop a story (even as a pantser, you need to understand plotting when you go back to revise!)
  • Learn to take criticism from a critique constructively – you may not agree with every point, but you can’t disregard the feedback without thoughtful consideration
  • Read the guidelines for manuscript submissions. I’ve always been good with this so I’m always surprised to find people who blindly send their work out.
  • Keep track of where you send your manuscripts, when, to whom and when you received an answer. Trust me. This will save you a ton of embarrassment. You can use excel, pen and paper, an app, whatever. Just track it.
  • Learn how to craft a cover letter or query. Cover letters for short stories are generally painless. Query letters can be a little more difficult (do you think?) so feedback is vital. Jonathan Maberry has some great free templates here. And here is a step by step if you need one.
  • Do not go into a pitch session (for fiction) with unfinished work, expect the agent to read anything right there, and/or give the agents your ideas and expect them to pick something for you to write about.
  • Learn how to handle rejection professionally, not personally. It happens to everyone. Don’t send a nasty response to the editor/agent/publisher. Don’t call them or stalk or write horrible things on your blog on Twitter. Just don’t be that person.

So if you want to be published, take a chance, grab that vine, and swing. Just expect to get a little muddy here and there on your way to publication and even afterward.

Helpful Links on Dealing with Rejection (because there will be a lot of that!)

How to Handle Rejection Like a Pro by Annie Sullivan

The Bulletproof Writer: How to Deal With Rejection at The Creative Penn

25 Things Writers Should Know About Rejection by Chuck Wendig

Book Review: Winterglass

WinterglassWinterglass by Benjanun Sriduangkaew isn’t for everyone, but it should be. I went into it without knowing much other than the main character was a female fighter trying to win a competition. What I got was a beautiful, imaginative, southeast Asian-inspired reimagining of the Hans Christian Andersen’s The Snow Queen. A world where the Winter Queen slowly takes over lands, giving them eternal winter.

Winterglass’ language is rich, lush, and dense. Not an easy read even though it is a novella. Sriduangkaew dives right in and there were more than a few moments when I had to stop to figure out what was going on. In the hands of a lesser writer, this might have been a fatal flaw. After all, you don’t want to lose your readers. But Sriduangkaew’s prose is so damn beautiful, I didn’t mind. In fact, taking moments to savor a clever phrase, or seeing how Sriduangkaew mentions things without explain them, immersed me further in the story. Sometimes I didn’t understand what was happening, but I trusted that Sriduangkaew would not let me down and I would figure it out so I went along with the ride to see where it would take me. I know not everyone likes that kind of story, but I thoroughly enjoyed piecing together things like how energy and heating and ghosts were all tied together.

The driving action of Nuawa’s story, a duelist who fights for the entertainment of the rich in the land of Siraparat, is a competition whereby the winner lands a plum spot in the Winter Queen’s army. Underneath this action is the question of Nuawa’s motives. Is she competing in order to kill this conquering winter queen at some point? Is she an unwitting tool for her mother/aunt? Sriduangkaew’s weaves Nuawa’s backstory in delicately. Hinting, but giving away little with references to Nuawa’s death as a six year old and a family in hiding.

Sriduangkaew’s use of non-conforming gender language is, if you are not expecting it, a little startling at first. At times using “they” when speaking of a single person and at times non-gender specific pronouns. I found I rather liked it, because it shows a society where not everyone has to be, or identify, as one or other. Some do, some don’t. It’s all cool.

Additionally, the queen’s top general Lussadh al-Kattan, and eventually Nuawa’s lover, is neither male nor female (or both) and we see other non-gender-conforming characters. Sriduangkaew gives us a post-gender world that feels real.

Highly recommended if you want something fresh and are prepared to go along and slowly uncover the world and Nuawa’s story.

Potential Spoilers…

I hate to be that person but I hope Sriduangkaew is planning on continuing the story. Nuawa wins the competition by the end of the novella, but at a hefty (and heart wrenching) price. I want to see how Nuawa’s story ends, how she accomplishes what she wants to do and how it will affect her relationships.

Winterglass is available at Apex Book Company in both book and e-book formats.

Under the Weather: Finding your Grit

This month’s Insecure Writer’s Support Group asks – When your writing life is a bit cloudy or filled with rain, what do you do to dig down and keep on writing?

The awesome co-hosts for the April 4 posting of the IWSG are Olga Godim, Chemist Ken, Renee Scattergood, and Tamara Narayan!



Excellent question and one that can be difficult to answer. Sometimes writing just doesn’t happen. Sometimes the answer is to do something else, like go for a run, or read, or even play a video game. For me the key is to be excited about a project so even if I’m not on a upswing, I can look forward to writing or editing a piece where I feel passionate about it.


Photo by Thomas Charters 

And by feeling passionate or excited I don’t mean feeling that it’s going to be easy. Sometimes the hardest work, where I’m thinking deeply about the writing, is the most fruitful. Granted, it’s so easy to look at the amount of work needed and say, oh I don’t feel passionate about this so I’m going to play World of Warcraft (yes, still playing). The road to procrastination is paved with side quests.  The trick is being honest and saying either:

  • I just can’t dredge up the words. I need a break to do something else today.
  • I’m at a tough spot and it’s going to be rough, but I’m going to focus on this for one hour and see what happens.

And the first option is okay. As long as I don’t let that day become a week or a month.

The second option is when I have to dig deep. Can I do 30 minutes? 15 minutes? Can I write just one paragraph? I tell myself I can delete it when I’m done. These tricks (somehow I can trick myself, which is pretty darn amazing. Brains are weird.), these tricks of time and short bursts of writing lend a sense impermanence to the writing which may be what I need at the moment. After all, if I pretend it’s not “serious writing,” then there’s no pressure. I can delete it and move on. I’m often pleasantly surprised by what comes of letting go of the pressure to perform.

If all else fails, sometimes I switch tracks completely. Last week, feeling conflicted and overwhelmed about working on my projects, I let myself write a few poems. No one has to see them, I flexed some creative muscle, and also worked on brevity and imagery. A win all around.

shakesSometimes it helps to remember that 10 minutes of writing is better than nothing. You don’t have to create a masterpiece each session. Just write and let go for a few precious moments.



Writing Life: Celebrating the Big (and the not-so-Big) Things

check markThis month, the Insecure Writer’s Support Group posed the question – How do you celebrate when you achieve a writing goal/finish a story? I’d love to be able to say I treat myself to a weekend in the Florida Keys or a workshop in Ireland over the summer. Alas, my celebration usually involves a mess of nerves untangling themselves for a short while and then a collapse on my bed. A brief respite when I glow with the satisfaction of sending a story to my critique group or to a publisher before my self-doubt and impostor syndrome kicks in. Ahhh, I have completed something!

But this reaction, while valid, only contributes to a continuous cycle of Never Feeling Good Enough. And this, my friends, is exhausting. Mentally, emotionally, and even physically. We should reward ourselves when we hit a goal or meet a deadline. We should take a moment to breathe, pat ourselves on the back (*creak* I definitely need more yoga in my life!) and say to ourselves, good job.

Going beyond massages, pedicures, manicures, what can we do when money is tight? Here is a quick list of free or low-cost rewards I’ve put together that works for me based on my interests:

  • A race entry (can be under $40 for a 5k)
  • Workout apparel (Tar-jay has some great options for all budgets and sizes)
  • A new book (here’s a no-brainer for writers. (You can opt for something light and breezy like a cozy mystery or dig into a how-to book for inspiration. I’m recommending Chuck Wendig’s Damn Fine Story, which is a switch from your normal how-to and delves more into narrative and storytelling.)
  • Try a new running or bike trail. Even if you’re not a runner or biker, getting outside can be a wonderful mental and emotional refresher
  • Sign up for a new type of workout – barre, Zumba, hot yoga. I’ve even seen naptime workouts.
  • Try a new type of wine (I recently had plum wine from Valenzano Winery here in NJ and it was delicious! Bonus, it was around $11.)
  • Try a new lipstick or nail polish. No long-term commitment and can you say unicorn or mermaid hues?
  • Check out a museum on free days
  • Organize a board game or card night with friends
  • Take a night off to pamper yourself – order in, watch a movie you’ve been meaning to see, wear something comfortable, and relax with no thoughts about the next goal or due date. Just be for a few hours.

Get moving!

Recently, I submitted several short stories to magazines. To celebrate, I finally decided to check out the trails near my house that I found out about two years ago but never tried. Of course, it was the day after a major wind and snow storm. Downed trees and mud acted as an obstacle course, but I needed to be outside after a long winter to sweep the cobwebs away and prepare now (small steps) for a triathlon in July. This didn’t cost anything, plus what better way to reward myself than giving my body the gift of health?

Remember, you can reward yourself for any goal, not just sending out work or publication. How about the fact that you wrote your minimum for the week (word count, time per day, days per week, whatever)? Or that you revised a particularly troublesome scene. Or that you learned a new skill to help you market yourself or your work better.


See…elebenty is a word.

We don’t give ourselves nearly enough credit for being writers and for writing (which we know is a lot more than just pounding out words). This is, for many of us, homework for life. Writing after the day job or school, after all the zillion other things that need to be done, and the elebenty billion other things we want to do (I just NEED that achievement in World of Warcraft!). We’re fighting against exhaustion, lack of time, and the ogre of procrastination.

Hitting a goal is some major shit. Treat yourself and learn to say, good job. No qualifiers needed.

Insecure Writers Support Group

The awesome co-hosts for the March 7 posting of the IWSG are Mary Aalgaard, Bish Denham,Jennifer Hawes, Diane Burton, and Gwen Gardner!






Planting Literary Seeds: Growing a Community

Growing a writing community isn’t easy. You start slow, you start small. A few writers gather in a dusty library room or a small corner of a bookstore. Maybe you trade manuscripts, or read passages aloud. Or you exchange personal stories of rejections, maybe even an acceptance or two. With luck, the group grows. More people join. Newbies, pros. All looking for someone who understands.


The great thing about life is that you never know where a path may take you. The best case scenario? Small intimate gatherings swell to large groups. Members exchange hard-won wisdom, new markets, more rejections, but even better, more acceptances.

As a long-time member (and currently president) of the South Jersey Writers’ Group, I have seen new members come through our doors, perhaps a little nervous, eyeing us up like prey wandering into a room full of predators and I have to laugh a little to myself. After all, I think most of us have heard the horror stories of writers’ groups full of bloated egos and relentless back-stabbing. You know how those artist types are.

Yet, not.

Because sometimes magic happens. Let me give you only a few examples.

Vice-President Jessica Walsh-Jadach recently lead the group’s January meeting on goal setting. She provided each of us with a worksheet and helped us our form our plan, goals, and intentions for the upcoming year by pushing us to delve into what makes us write. Jessica, a certified life coach, also published an amazing 2-year journaling book, something I’m sure she hadn’t thought she would ever do when she joined the group (nor did she think she would become vice-president!).

Jennifer M. Eaton has had several YA books published with great success and is now a USA Today Bestselling Author. I still have yet to convince her to lead a meeting. Soon…

Tom Minder’s crime fiction novel The Long Harbor Testament was published last year and he has had many successful book signings, including several at various Barnes and Noble stores.

Kathryn Hively runs the Just BE Parenting blog and is a contributor to other parenting blogs and sites.

Cassandra Ulrich has published several young adult novels, adult romances, short stories, and poems.

There are many others, but I want to stop here. All five members highlighted are very different writers with a wide range of interests and backgrounds, but each of them has progressed through hard work, self-education, dedication, and of course talent, but that talent is something they have cultivated. And, more importantly, they each have contributed to the writers’ group by giving back to help others. Each is generous with their knowledge and time and ready to answer questions because that’s what’s we do.

This is what a writing community means and looks like – to support and build each other up. It’s not about competition, not about tearing others down, not about the stabbing of the backs. The SJWG exists to grow the voices of South Jersey and our members are integral to that mission. We are there for each other. Sometimes with knowledge, sometimes with a hug, sometimes with a friendly, but honest critique.

And really, the only prey at our meetings are the cookies.


Serendipity and Writing Conferences

Tomorrow begins the 69th Philadelphia Writers’ Conference. Last year I had blogged about my experience as a first-time attendee. This year’s fantastic line-up includes J. H. Sullivan as Keynote Speaker and Yolanda Wisher as Opening Speaker. I’m excited to attend again this year since it was such an amazing experience in 2016.


I have only attended a handful of writing conferences, but I can’t say I’ve been to one and have not learned something, or met someone interesting. I think even getting out there and being surrounded by life-minded people is helpful. I’ve practiced pitching my novel and talked to publishers and agents and have always come away with some new idea. Truly, the atmosphere fosters a sense of community and stimulates creativity.

As we approached the start of the PWC I was mulling over this post and why writing conferences are so awesome.

So I was pleasantly surprised to find that Donna Galanti, author of Joshua and the Lightning Road and the brain behind Your Awesome Author Life, posted a new YouTube video 12 Reasons Why to Attend a Writers’ Conference. Serendipity much? Take a look at Donna’s 12 reasons and subscribe to her channel. She’s full of great ideas and good advice.

Finally, I’m packing a light, but large bag. I love the swag!

Revive the Drive: An Interview with Lesley Conner from Apex Publications

Today, I interview Lesley Conner, writer and managing editor of Apex Publications and Apex Magazine.

Apex Publications is currently holding a subscription drive called Revive the Drive. By contributing you not only help an amazing speculative fiction publishing company continue to publish original works, you can also unlock new original fiction, increase the pay for the writers and artists, and help with a website upgrade.

Items for sale start for as little as $3 (the Maurice Broaddus guest edited issue 95).

Onto the interview…

Have you ever received really nasty (or plain crazy) responses to a rejection?

I have gotten some pretty nasty responses to rejections. I’m sure every editor has. Typically when it happens, it’s because the author assumes that their story was rejected due to something personal about the author: snide comments about how we’d buy their story if they were a woman (because we all know women have it so much easier), or they should sue because we obviously rejected the story purely based on their race (which I didn’t know before they responded to the rejection and told me). Those emails really bother me. Honestly, when I’m reading a story, I barely even look at who the author is or where they’re from. And there’s no way for me to know any personal information about them unless they put it in their cover letter. All I’m interested in is whether or not the story is good for Apex.

Now occasionally I’ll get a response to a rejection where the author tells me how much I’m going to regret rejecting the story and it’s already been bought by another magazine and they are going to make that magazine rich and famous because they are SOOOO amazing! Mmhmm, sure you are. If another magazine has actually already bought the story, then you simultaneously submitted to Apex Magazine and the other zine, and we don’t accept simultaneous submissions anyway. Sooo … In this situation, I have not once regretted turning down the story.


What do you personally like best about going through the slush pile, besides finding a gem of a story?

Of course finding an AMAZING story is always the best feeling, but I also really like when I read a cover letter and it says that this is an author’s first submission. Or it’s from a young writer in high school and it’s their dream to be a published author. I always try to be really positive—even if I’m sending them a rejection notice—when interacting with these authors. I want to encourage them to keep submitting, keep writing. This is a tough business. It’s hearing a LOT of ‘no’ among very rare ‘yes’s. So if I can do anything to help a new writer out, I’m going to do it.


What made you decide to go into publishing?

It wasn’t really a conscious decision. I knew Jason Sizemore (Apex’s EiC) from a few sci-fi conventions that we had both attended and saw him post on Facebook that he was looking for someone to help out. On a whim, I volunteered. At the time I was staying home with my younger daughter who wasn’t in school yet and working on my novel The Weight of Chains, so I had free time on my hands. Despite having no prior editing experience, Jason gave me a shot and I started working 5 or 10 hours a week helping with marketing. Six years later and here we are. Best on a whim ‘yeah, I’ll do that!’ moment in my life. J


Do you ever find yourself accepting a story that you like but still needs work? If so, what goes into the editing process between you and author?

Typically the stories we buy are very clean and ready to be published. We work on a very tight schedule, so there isn’t time for a lot of back and forth. This is why it is incredibly important for writers to make sure that their stories are polished and ready to go before they submit. Of course we copy edit every story before publication, but this is only to catch minor things—an awkward phrase or missing word. We aren’t doing major changes.


Best tip on balancing work/ home life/social media?

Balance? Yeah … that would be good to have …

I wish I were joking more than I am, but I suck at balancing my work and home life. I work from home, so … it sorta feels like I’m always working. And sometimes I AM always working, because if something pops up it is really easy to just grab the laptop and deal with it. This is not good. It is not healthy. And I am trying really hard to be better about it.

As for social media, I do have tip: Log out. Yeah, I said it. Log out! I used to keep Twitter and Facebook up and open all the time and periodically throughout the day I’d scan through it. That doesn’t sound that dangerous, but it is. When you do this, you have no idea how much time you are spending just scrolling! That’s time that you could be using to write or work or read; all things much more important that liking a photo posted by someone you haven’t seen in 20 years. Also, I feel like in recent months that Twitter and Facebook seriously depress me. Everyone is so angry and negative all the time (some with good reason, some without) and it was really getting to me. I’d be sucked into reading these long posts and emerge completely beaten down. Even when I could tear myself away to work, I couldn’t focus. So for the most part I stay logged out. I check in on things first thing in the morning while I’m drinking my coffee, and may go back one more time during the day. And that’s it. It’s a small change, but it has really helped me be more productive and happier.


What changes or patterns have you noticed over the past several years regarding the content of submissions? 

Submissions are a strange, funny thing. Taken individually or just a handful of stories, you won’t see anything, but when you read a lot of slush, patterns do emerge. Not so much patterns as in ‘this is the future of scifi,’ but more a realization after reading a dozen stories, more than half of them dealt with the sea or ocean in some way. Or suddenly a chunk of stories come in that are all flash fiction. Or maybe you get a bunch of stories that deal with monsters. Sometimes the similarity between a batch of stories is oddly specific—cowboys on Mars—and at that point I have to wonder if another publisher was holding an open call for a themed anthology and we’re seeing the stories that didn’t make the final ToC.



Lesley Conner is a writer/editor, managing editor of Apex Publications and Apex Magazine, and a Girl Scout leader. When she isn’t handling her editorial or Girl Scout leader responsibilities, she’s researching fascinating historical figures, rare demons, and new ways to dispose of bodies, interweaving the three into strange and horrifying tales. Her short fiction can be found in Mountain Dead, Dark Tales of Terror, A Hacked-Up Holiday Massacre, as well as other places. Her first novel The Weight of Chains was published by Sinister Grin Press in September, 2015. Best of Apex Magazine: Volume 1 marks her debut experience in anthology editing. She lives in Maryland with her husband and two daughters, and is currently working on a new novel. To find out all her secrets, you can follow her on Twitter at @LesleyConner.

March Book Round-Up: Keeping It Real

In 2017 I decided to take part in the Goodreads Reading Challenge, where you set a goal for books to read during the year and try to meet that goal. When I was younger, I would fly through books at a tremendous rate. I remember being nine and my mother bought me a Nancy Drew book (hardcover!) and I finished it the same day.

Mom: “You read the whole book already?”

Me: “What else was I supposed to do with it?”

Over the years, I’ve noticed that my annual reading rate has slowed for various reasons, not all of which are bad, but still have cut into my reading time.

So, how was my first quarter?


So far, I’ve finished 8 books. Not too shabby. Thinking about the challenge, I decided to do a monthly round-up which will help promote the books and keep me honest (and reading!).

Life in a Medieval Castle and Life in a Tudor Castle (which has disappeared from my Kindle). Both short non-fiction books that walk the reader through a day in the life in the named castle. These are surface-level books, which do not delve into details, but good stepping stones if you wanted to learn more about either topic. As a writer, I found they were good if you needed some starting information but didn’t want to bog yourself down in too much research just yet.

Not So Much Said the Cat, by Michael Swanwick – one of the my favorite speculative fiction writers. I had discovered his work back in the 90s reading through an issue of Asimov’s Science Fiction and fell in love with his storytelling. This collection of short stories does not disappoint. I pondered the deeper meanings and the impact of time travel for days after reading The Woman Who Shook the World Tree. Passage of Earth freaked me out. Like really freaked me. Not for the squeamish, but incredibly thought provoking on how we view alien life forms. And Of Finest Scarlet Was Her Gown, from which the title of the collection is taken, is an amazing adventure and come-of-age story. Which happens to take place in Hell. Michael Swanwick once again proves that he is a master of short fiction.

not so much said the cat

Cover for “Not So Much” Said the Cat


Read on!